My big “duh”.

Posted on April 21, 2014 in Uncategorized

Dear Reader,

I’d apologize for not posting in a while, but… y’know. Baby What’s a girl to do? 

When last I wrote I was royally freaked over an incident involving a suicidal raccoon, who decided that my MINI was going to be his means of shuffling off this mortal coil. He was successful, but don’t worry! He wasn’t alone in his journey to the afterlife. He took my wheel rim with him. I’m sure they’re having fun together somewhere. 


Long story short, we spent some quality time learning what a fun time there is to be had when something happens to the one car when one is in a one car family. It was a blasty blast. 


In happier news, I think my ADHD brain has finally figured out how to get a show memorized, when I’m lucky if I have even 15 minutes to myself a day. I have trouble breaking things down into smaller chunks, and just chipping away at small pieces instead of trying to get through the whole thing at once. It sounds obvious, but it never occurred to me that I could just look at one scene a day (or even just PART of a scene), instead of being an over-achieving perfectionist, and trying to blast through three acts every single day. Granted, finding time when the tiny one is occupied with his daily ceiling fan surveillance long enough to get through even one scene can still be tricky, but it’s significantly more plausible than the aforementioned blasting through of three acts. Break. It. Down. Because, DUH!


Why did it take me so long to get to this technique? I’m not new at studying. I survived public school, and have a college degree, both of which involved some measure of study. ADHD, yo. It’s a real thing. I have a real problem looking at pieces of a project, instead of always seeing everything that needs to be done, all the time. Seeing everything all the time can kinda be a bit mind explody when you’re not quite sure if you’ve remembered to change your son’s clothes, never mind your own underpants. I’ve dealt with it my whole life, but after having yon wee laddie join our awesome little family, it turns out that I have to adjust my learning techniques to fit into his life. I’m still figuring out how to adjust, and make sure I get my work done, without Eli feeling like his mommy has abandoned him just as he is discovering his toes (he’s still working on that one, btw). 


The good news is, I feel pretty confident about the first two acts of the show I’m working on right now for This is Water. Act 3 is still up in the air, but I can do it! As long as I can slow down long enough to see the pieces and not the whole, this just might happen guys!



A “caffeine is still going to be my best friend” me


“C’mon, Ma! Just focus, already!”